Entropy and Pain

2005-12-17T15:34:00.000+08:00

I suck at those Photoshop and html shit. Seriously.

2005-12-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

Well I'm currently Mapling now. Leaving in a few hours time though.
Ok speaking of Maple, I was in Ellinia training and then went back to deposit items. Met this friendly wizard. I f2ed and he f2ed back. I never really bothered using fame so I gave him free fame and he asked why and famed me back. He thought of selling it cause he said he was poor. Then I gave him 1k. I thought he would just take it and walk away but he gave me 5 mana pots. 5 mana pots is 3k. Thanks alot dude. Rofl.
Bye people:D

2005-12-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

I guess taking up drums wasn't that bad afterall. But I prefer guitar:)! I so want the PRS Billy Martin SE. Heard it's $800 plus amps and cables would be $1000. I just want to focus on one thing. Ok. And the guy at Davis haven't replied whether they stocked PRSBMSE. I want it so badly you could see me acting like a spoilt suckup brat crying if i didn't have it. Not.

2005-12-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

What's the problem with you Maplers? I barely touched the ground and was asked to change channel. Look, if almost every channel, one maple owns the whole map, how about others? All I want is to get curse dolls and level at the same time. And please, you're all 4X,5X. Go Ossy. What's with the PCC, CC? Stingy -.-

2005-11-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

Denise is confused.
Denise does not know what to do.
Denise can't find her way.

:/

2005-11-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

I apologise to Shuhan, though most probably she's not going to read this. Ok I don't want to attend a gathering where I don't have fun and everything's so screwed and go with people i don't really associate well with.

First was chalet. When I said my mother had points, everyone was pointing fingers asking me to book. Then even after knowing that the chalets couldn't be booked with points already, no one cared, and still, ask denise. What am i. And what the rest could do is rush Shuwen, ask her when is the chalet and ask her to hurry. Fuck all of you fuckerzoids. If you're so capable, book it yourself. All of you are waiting for the fun, never thought of how to book and the preparation.

Rippers suck. What makes you have the right to grab my photo and put it in your friendster photo page. You know who you are. SH. I don't even give a damn if you're reading this. Go get pissed and never talk to me again by all means.

And stop stalking me. She's making me think she's a lesbian by stalking me. And him, a pervert.

2005-11-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

My blog's so screwed and I don't even want to care about it anymore.

2005-11-08T11:07:00.000+08:00

So let me get this straight
Say now you loved me all along?
What made you hesitate
To tell me with words what you really feel
I can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
I remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers
Insignificantly enough we both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

But thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
But i must confess you're so much more then i remember
Can't help but entertain these thoughts
Thoughts of us together

2005-11-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

Wheee :] I really can't wait. Can you?

Saving for a drumset -.- And getting an electric guitar. My room's too small. Need a bigger, soundproof room to jam in lol. Well maybe not now. My internet isn't working properly and my MSN is down.

Sigh. Need to do some self-evaluation here :/ I guess I won't be blogging to often already k. Nothing much to blog during holidays. So don't miss me you twits. :]

2005-10-31T23:17:00.000+08:00

I think my father's partially deaf and lazy. But I don't blame him on the lazy part cause I'm also lazy. But I don't think I regret saying 'I feel like fucking killing you.' to him the other day. I know I shouldn't swear infront of my parents so now I'm maintaining a 'positive' mindset or something. Ok that is so not me. But I'll try k.
Now the whole house has no life. I mean, now that Mum has gone to Perth and my grandfather left for China, the whole house seems so quiet. And my sister just had her chinese O's and she has fever the day before.

I can't wait. Can you?

2005-10-29T18:02:00.000+08:00

Right. Just came back from open house and at there, I only get to eat caramel, clean-up the Chem lab and meet up with some people.

I know everyone's bored. I suddenly have the urge back to go to school for lessons. It's like during the holidays, you would want to get back to school and when there's school, you would want the holidays. The pros of holidays to me are that we got more time to hang out. The cons are that I won't get my allowance everyday since it's holidays. Let's meet up someday people. Fix a place and ring me up. Take me out and I'll go. Char's going somewhere later; I don't know where. So Bon Voyage . <3

Did I mention that there's too many egoistic people in our class.

2005-10-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

You'll fancy me mad cause I'm doing the holiday maths homework now at 11pm. I'm currently doing question 26. I'm surprised that although now's 11pm, there are seven girls in our class online and two boys. I guess my conclusion about most 1F sleeping early and all that was wrong. So let's all have eyebags.

I'm not going to Perth cause the days that I'll be staying there lessen to a short 4 days, which means not much fun at all. But it makes no difference cause my brother would be back on the 18th of november so I could still see him. Kristin and I would be going to Bangkok but on different dates. We planned to get bird flu together and when we return to school, we'll let everyone avoid us and quarantine ourselves from the world.

2005-10-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

Ok now in Ms Chong's lesson in comp lab. I'm sitting quite far so hope she doesn't see me... And now we have to work on some lame jokes and riddles but I didn't bring my thumbdrive. Before we switched labs, Nadiah and I chatted for a while... Talk about stuff. It's nice lah.

Tomorrow's Art Fest and there's clean up. Wish I could pon but report books will be out. And there's guides tomorrow. There's no one beside me. Nadiah's computer couldn't work so she's behind me. And down the row is Sanjana, Nad and Jane... Let's rot.

2005-10-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

Lol just turned on the TV and Good Charlotte's on it. Their new video of The Chronicles of Life and Death. It's very good and lots of animation and there's Billy playing the guitar he designed (PRS Billy Martin SE). I want it badly but I think it's like $800.

I don't feel like doing anything now. I just want to lie on the bed for the rest of the day -- 4 hours, and watch the TV... I'm even too lazy to go online.
So busy next week; bazaar and stuff and preparation for UG camp. Wtf but HEH. My sister envys our skool's bazaar. The stalls and stuff, hairstyling and colouring and all.

Oh and Chan-Ho made me and Char redo some flora and fauna shit. -_-

2005-10-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha the music project's videos were hilarious !

Retrooooooo <3

2005-10-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

Ok today was great. I got to sit beside Shuhan, who is fun and likes doing the MSN thing and near Jun and Shuwen. They nearly made my day during the sexuality education thing; the discussion was totally hilarious. I'm soooo rotting at home (And Jun, I know you're rusting-.-). I want to go out. Town. Anywhere. Even my guitar teacher said...

Cher: Finished exams?
Me: Ya.
Cher: So why never go out?
Me: Cause you came.
Cher: Are you going out later?
Me: No, unless you don't come.
Cher: So what are you going to do later?
Me: Computer.

Then she shows the sigh look.

I'm rotting, decaying, decomposing. There's soon going to be maggots on me. Just wait and see.

"Haha, Maggots" - Emily, Corpse Bride.

2005-10-18T16:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should stop with the 'Save the snails' thing -.-

Can't wait to be on Holiday.

And I'm still lazy.

2005-10-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

Hm. Got back Literature, History, Science, Maths and Geography. What's great about Monday is that there's many subjects on that day and the more papers to be returned back. But the more we will moan and MOURN.

Literature was mediocre, so was History and Maths. And Geography. So basically everything's ok -_-

HAI. I'm so on the horns of a dilemma. I know Nadiah most probably wouldn't read this but... HEH.

Why I can't join:
1. TM. O.O
2. I'm still sleeping.
3. I'm afraid the teacher would do lame stuff.
4. I'm lazy.
5. What if I'm not in?

Well my mum allows but I'm so fucking lazy so sorry... But I'll try to register and see if I'm in. If I'm in, then Yay. But I'll try for only a month:)

Oh ya, on my way home, I saw 2 dead snails like wtf. I didn't predict that; I mean I just said 'Save the Snails' and never did I expect... >.>

2005-10-15T14:56:00.000+08:00

Mum said doing this would give me wrinkles.

2005-10-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

Ahah. I'm bored. But going out later:)

AHHHHHHH. I so want my brother to trade rooms with me... Then it'll be a major renovation. We both got loads of junk in our room. My room's too small, can't even find a place to put drumset and elec guitar... No power supply to plug anything, well only two. -_-
Hope Mum can convince him cause he's 75% most of the time in Aus now.

Cheerios kiddos

2005-10-13T17:28:00.000+08:00

I saw/learnt/laughed alot today. But somehow ~~I still feel something is missing and~~ I ~~don't~~ enjoyed myself. -.-

2005-10-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

2005-10-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

Knowing endless, consequences;
I feel so useless in this.

Sup' TWITS!
Mugging's over. Whee.

Cinecinecinecinecinecine.

Caught Tim Burton's Corpse Bride at Cineleisure. Tim Burton is great (The melancholy death of oyster boy XD)
Ok I'm so dead tired now.
Saw many people, some from 2F and also Laurel Sihui and Xinying.
Well if I didn't come to TK (for the better), I would be hanging out with Laurel Sihui and Ying already:)

I would really wish to grow up, as in more great stuff to do.

'After the exams, you can talk until your jaws drop' and 'You can glue to your friends everywhere you go' - Miss Chong.

2005-10-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

Well firstly Happy Birthday to guitar cher...

And before that guitar, had Chinese tuition for 3 hours.
Can you believe it? Headache ahh.

DELETED.
HAHA.SUCKER.

Word.

2005-10-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

Lol ok just now in the kitchen, making lunch & Mum didn't know the milk was 'spoiled', although it haven't expired, she was using it for the pasta thingy.

Me: Hey you used the milk?
Mum: Ya why?
Me: Eh NOO.
Mum: What? What?
Me: You try.
Mum: Eee taste bitter.
Mum: Better not eat this(pasta) already.
Mum: *Examines carton*
Mum: Nothing wrong leh.
Me: I think it was the cows.
Mum: Hah the cow ate something bitter.

-.-

2005-09-08T12:08:00.000+08:00

MUGGING STARTS NOW.

1) I hate scales & don't ever want to learn it. I wonder how Mike Dirnt & Billie Joe learn them. Then I can't do solos.

2) I dared myself to read from Chapter 6 to 15 (of the current book I'm reading) but haven't touched a page since morning.

3) Geography workbook :D

4) I realised after I typed this, I WILL PUSH MYSELF TO DO IT. TRY MUGGING YOU PEOPLE. IT'S GOOOOD.

5) Oh ya and I missed out Chinese tuition later at 5. Ahh, headache ah.

2005-09-04T18:29:00.000+08:00

I'm back!

03 September

10am:
Breakfast buffet!

12pm:
Lunch buffet!
Oh ya and we were like eating and this Japanese staff guy, Maki, and some other staff came and join us (we don't know them). Yeah Maki was the trapeze guy and is hair was uber cool cause it's kinda like frizzy and stuff and he puts the hair accessory thing (like the beads and stuff). Waaaaay funky.

4pm:
Archery! Well I hate archery more than archery hates me.

6pm:
Tennis! Not table tennis.

8pm:
Dinner buffet! Underaged drinking :)

04 September

10am:
Kayaking! Whee trust me it's great.

12pm:
Table tennis then Lunch buffet! Underaged drinking again :)

2pm:
Pack.

5.30pm:
Singapore!

The best thing of the trip was, of course, BUFFET!
Seriously :D I ate alot like Templeton.

Avalanche of homework haven't done yet,
Maths, Geog, English and I got to study for year ends, which I doubt I will.

>:) I'm ouuuuut.

2005-08-25T15:36:00.000+08:00

All my fears have pushed you out.
I don't really care either.
I contemplated. Being impulsive and angry is just a waste of time if it's just because of someone.

I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.
I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever.

Till death.

2005-08-23T15:59:00.000+08:00

It's like a dejavu. I don't wanna start the 'I'm so tired of living I want to die' cliche but damn, I hate this.

Don't push it.
I'm so stuck for the first time in life for quite a few times and most say it's the point when your life is taking a turn but I don't get it. I can actually let it go and after that live on like life is ok already?
Fuck I hate it like I'm gonna blow into a deflated balloon.
I was stupid and I just wanna suck it all up and spit it out and after that, I would totally be ok. Not now anymore. I tried and I know He's helping and since that, I'll continue trying.
I can't hate you cause you gave me alot and I'm gonna owe you more. I don't like putting up facades. Word?

Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye.

2005-08-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Mugging. Mugging.

Ahhh why must the oral be delayed. Fagged-up.

Damn, Faridah gave a smirk or something during the return of the class test. Got shitty marks, 9/25.
As for History nothing to gloat about Cause it wasn't that good neither was it best.
Chinese; Still, I remained on the same idiotic spot since the beginning & I didn't improved or was either by 1-3 marks.

The new Math teacher is really giving me the creeps. Why. Must. All. Of. Them. Make. Me. Feel. Fawkward.

Wait, did I just say Fawkward?

2005-08-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

And will you tell all your friends;
You've got your gun to my head.

Today was an ok day.
Didn't hit me euphoric or anything.
Wasn't looking forward to it
Throughout I was dead tired but didn't manage to
take forty winks like the rest did in the bus.

In a trance.

2005-08-18T19:11:00.000+08:00

I spent like 2.5 hours on the poster.
I haven't transferred the presentation to a diskette yet.

My keyboard almost died.

2005-08-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

The freaking cam finally works.

I am so broke. Broke I am.
I need to fucking badly save.

2005-08-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

Monday, 15 August

Maths: Chap 7 & 8 (Book 1) , Chap 1 & 3 (Book 2)
History: Chapter 1 & 2 ( MCQ 10marks, Structured 15marks)

Tuesday, 16 August

HCL: Chap 19-26, excluding 21. Chengyu 51-75.
Lit: Charlotte's Web

Wednesday, 17 August

Science: 7.2 (read 7.1), 8.1 (Solutions&Suspensions), Notes.
Geography: NO IDEA. CHECK THE FREAKING BOARD?

Thursday, 18 August

HOMEC: Chap 1-6 (Book 1), Chap 7 & 8 (Book 2)

2005-08-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

I want to catch Charlie & the Chocolate factory.
& Everyone doesn't want to go except Mum like -.-
If she goes, I needn't pay! & I'm so broke.

I can dream on about having Billy Martin PRS SE.

2005-08-05T15:48:00.000+08:00

It's so freakingly boring everyday but get use to it! The routines, eating bread&crackers everyday!

He's so fucking retarded I want to fucking kill him like a knife in his head. He's worst than the other AAS and ASS and AASS.
Fuck you, you gay retarded scout. Stop following me like a fly you fag.
God I'm swearing much these days. It's random. I wouldn't swear that much if only these things didn't happen.
The angst of a 12 year old.
Yeah and I can't believe the teacher-in-charge left us here and maybe she weren't even bothered to come check on us.

2005-08-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired after tuition. It was a total bore.

Wishlist ;
-PRS Billy Martin SE, or Fender Stratocaster.
-Marshall Amps
-Nirvana Shirt ($35)
-Black Frames ($15)
-Billabong Wallet ($20)
-HUGE pencilbox ($20)
-Photoshop 7
-Nikon Finepix ($699) whoosh.
-1 more top. just one.
-Sketchbook, C/P

Those are so gonna cost a bomb. Till then.

2005-07-31T20:20:00.000+08:00

Dad is cool Cause he swears (infront of friends) but he doesn't allow me to but who gives a damn.

2005-07-30T08:43:00.000+08:00

I woke up in the middle of the night, 1:56.
Now it's like 8 in the morning and i have tuition
at 9. How can I survive. How I wish to fire her.

2005-07-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

They're cool rents but who knows what they'll become years later. Old and naggy? :)
Old and greeeeeeeeeey. Exaggerated. Scratch that :)

2005-07-26T16:22:00.000+08:00

i ate homework.
hate. not ate.

i just wanna play the GUITAR
all day long and abandon the
homework. 2++ months to holiday.
anticipation.

i can't wait. i'm like; counting down
to the days. common tests&final.
like who doesn't want to pon.

my p key has a problem.
p p p pp p p p p .pp ppp

2005-07-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

Billie Joe has an iPod.

Mom is so so so great. Extremely.
She agreed. And even continued allowing me to learn it.
And buy it. And also change it.

Dad was seriously harmlessly crazy today :)

Folks. Aight.

2005-07-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

Tried hold on, take me away, nobody's home,
boulevard of broken dreams, are you happy now,
i just wanna live, the anthem...

Very fun... Going for electric, need amp...

Wondered why I was so stupid to buy acoustic.
Now how do I tell my rents.

2005-07-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

erase time and bring me back to where
it all started.
it ain't easy.
but it'll be better.
back to the beginning
where we fake the smiles;
the stupid things we'll do.
it'll be so much better than suffering now.
when we think we know each other;
you think.